teenage pregnancy - good or bad?

i got pregnant in my college, 3rd year. i was taking up nursing course. at first i really was thinking that i should abort it because i need to continue my course in nursing especially that i will be 4th year after the second semester. yes, i admit, i tried to abort the baby by drinking a drug (sorry, i won't post the drug name here, i believe it will be a good source of idea by people who will try to abort their child...), but still my baby kept on hanging in me until i decided to keep him. i was trying to save money up with my boyfriend. since the baby is ok and all assessments are normal, we both and my doctor ob-gyne said that it will be normal. until my labor day, i was on 7cm already then my baby's heartbeat gone up to 18-heartbeats until to 200heartbeats per minute. the doctor said urgently that he needs to send me to operating room for casarian section operation. later when the baby was pulled out, it was then known that he has his chord tangled on his neck making his heartbeat very high and that he cannot push through with the delivery in my vaginal canal.

now, the issue here is, what did it do to me? was it a good or bad happening to me?

i admit that i am happy having my son now. he has given my life a great direction and now i know what i need to do for my life, my family and to myself and especially to my son. thanks to him, i now understand how life should be lead in a better way.